Why do i still love my sons mom?

She left me to be with some other guy two weeks into a 1 year lease, she hid my son from me for 2 months, I ended up going to jail looking for my son, I lost custody of him along with my job, condo and car, she laughed at me in court for crying tryng to get to see him, I ended up not seeing him for a year and two months and made me do supervised visits for a year cause she told everyone I was abusive and I didn't want to be a dad and EVERYONE believed her, she told my son her boyfriend was his daddy, she told my deepest secrets to her boyfriend who harrased me about them, she ended up ditching the guy she married and abandoning our son for 9 months (I picked him up and took him home tellin her husband to **** off) she told me our 4 year old son was possessed, now she finally contacted me telling me while she was gone she was raped, brain washed and she missed our son. After all this I still love her and want her to come so I can get her help but she rather stay with her new boyfriend 3 hours away and help him raise his 2 year old. Why do I love her still?